Yesterday was Easter and I missed you so much. I wish you could have been here to see the Easter egg hunt in the back yard and sit at the dinner table and enjoy the wonderful dinner with the Family like we use to out at the ranch. I know its selfish to want you back because you are so much better now. The pain is all mine and I don't wish that on you. I just miss you. Tomorrow is your Birthday. I have some flowers planted in a pot but I don't think they will bloom in time for your birthday. However the Wisteria I planted in the back has! . And its such a pretty purple. Your favourite colour.
The kids are all grown up now and well, I guess you know better than me what they are up to these days. I am doing as you ask and looking in on Daddy. He's doing fine. Steven is wonderful. I don't know what I would do without him. He is what holds me together on those days I fall apart and the tears won't stop. He is so understanding. You were right...and I'm trying hard to not mess up this time.
I love you Mama.